I have been busy lately, and haven’t had much time to blog. Between a full time job, two part time jobs, and a serious health condition, I really have been struggling a bit. But something happened to me this morning that hit me so hard emotionally I had to fight back tears (I was in public, after all….if I had been at home, I would have let the tears flow freely!). It was something that others may see as insignificant, but it meant the world to me.
We were at church, and I was having a particularly rough day with my vertigo. Several times, I stumbled, and Al supported me. One of those times he looked at me and said, “Lean on me.” I’m not sure why….maybe because of my stress level and worries lately…..maybe because of the new plan of treatment my doctor wants for me that scares me a bit……maybe because I was tired……maybe because I’ve been struggling so much lately……..but those three words were exactly what I needed to hear!
I know he’s always there for me. He didn’t have to say it. We are always there for each other. We are each other’s best friend, so we talk about everything, knowing the other’s strengths, weaknesses, and faults. He knows how hard things are for me, when I don’t let on to anyone else that I’m struggling. He knows how hard I try to please others. He knows how I use humor (we both do) to mask hurt so we don’t worry anyone else. So of course, I know I can “lean” on him whenever I need him (daily!), and he leans on me every day too! But to hear it today….it was exactly what I needed.
Sometimes our stressful minds play tricks on us, and we become our own worst enemy, feeling that we are alone. Hearing someone say something as simple as “lean on me” has a way of snapping us back to reality. We really are loved. We really do have support.
How many of us have friends or family that we lean on, or who lean on us? Do we ever reassure them that we are there for them? Probably not, but maybe we should. Sometimes hearing it is comforting, and can lift our spirits. Sometimes just hearing those words is all we need. I’ve read many quotes about how it doesn’t matter how much you tell someone you love them if you show them. Hearing it is just as important, as far as I’m concerned. Feeling it AND hearing it.
As much as hearing, “lean on me,” meant to me today, I told myself I will try to be more aware and considerate of others who may need to know that I am there for them. Don’t assume they know. Tell them.