I accomplished something yesterday that I never thought I could. I have wanted to attempt a career in real estate for many years. I have bought and sold my own homes, after fixing them up, several times. Now, don’t get me wrong….teaching is where my heart is, and always will be, but teaching is just not making ends meet these days. I have to have at least a side hustle, or a plan to supplement our income. If it turns into something full time, that will be great! I will keep teaching until I feel the need to walk away.
I used to toss around the idea of real estate occasionally, and was met by the same comments from negative people, or people who felt the need to make me feel like I wasn’t good enough……..”Yeah, but it’s commission only,” “The test is really hard….are you sure you’re smart enough?” “There’s a lot of realtors out there!” “It’s not possible. You don’t have time!” I know it’s commission only, but with any business where you work for yourself, it’s basically based on how much you sell…..commission only! Yet, plenty of business owners and contractors do quite well. Yes, the test is hard, and I didn’t know if I was smart enough or not, but if I didn’t try, how would I ever know? And yes, there are a lot of realtors out there, so the competition is tough, and some people aren’t cut out for it. But again, if I didn’t try, how would I ever know? And, it would be possible if I made the time, and that’s what I did.
I finally decided last summer to start taking a class. It was tough! It was online, so I had to pace myself, and be disciplined to read and study every day. My husband was very supportive, and cheered me on, keeping my spirits up, even when I felt defeated. I spent my whole summer focused on it, and finally took the test yesterday…….
When I went into the test center, I was very nervous. I didn’t sleep well the night before. I had heard that the there was about a 50/50 chance of passing it. I went through all of the security procedures to make sure I am who I said I am, they checked my jacket pockets for cheating devices, looked at my calculator to make sure it didn’t have any way of typing letters or words, gave me the directions, took my photo, and then led me into the testing room. As I read through the questions, I was telling myself that I should probably try to memorize a few, because I was counting on failing it. I thought I would be back in 30 days to retake it. That’s what happens to you when you are worn down by those who doubt you, question your character, intelligence, or motives, or are constantly pessimistic or negative. Even though I try to always be positive and encouraging toward others, I have let those feelings of doubt and negativity wear down my own self esteem. Going through life not feeling good enough, smart enough, or pretty enough is tough. I’ve never wanted to be the cause of making someone else feel that way……..
When I finished the test, and walked out of the testing room, the proctor smiled and said, “Congratulations!” I was shocked! I said, “I PASSED????” She said I did, showed me the verification she had printed out, and asked how many times I had taken it. I said this was the first time. She said, “Oh baby, didn’t your instructor tell you that nobody passes it the first time? We have people come in 4, 5, and 6 times to take it! You did great!” I was shaking! All of that hard work had paid off! Here I am, at 52 years old, taking on something completely new……oh, and with a brain tumor too! I did it!
On the drive home, I was fighting back tears, telling myself I didn’t fail, and I’m NOT a failure! I had planned on keeping it together when I told Al, but as soon as I walked in the door, I burst into tears, saying, “I did it! I passed!” And you know what? He was just as happy as I was! He was proud of me, hugging me, laughing, kissing me, telling me over and over how proud he was of me. I haven’t had a lot of people tell me that in my life. It means a LOT to hear it.
It may not seem like such a big endeavor for some of you, but I know of people who have completely given up on this test. It was a huge deal for me! I know that with determination, hard work, and a support system, I can accomplish what I want. We all have our dreams in life. Let’s support each other in our endeavors. Let’s not make each other feel like we aren’t good enough…..for ANY reason. Encouragement goes a long way. Let’s do that for each other….in a world where negativity, jealousy, divisiveness, spite, anger, resentfulness, and hatred seem to prevail, let’s help build each other up to accomplish our dreams and goals. It doesn’t take much to give an encouraging word………and wouldn’t you rather be spreading good cheer, and positive vibes, instead of hurting someone because of your own doubts and insecurities?
Tonight, I can finally say, “I did it!” I accomplished something I didn’t think I could do. What is it that you want to do, and what (or who) is holding you back? You can do this!